Christy’s Blog

I have come along way on my quest to improve my life and find more joy and happiness this year. I am being nudged to share my life purpose here so here it goes.

You see, these past two months I have been doing major soul searching. I have been teaching myself to dream again and really find what it is that I LOVE aside from my family and friends, etc.

I continue to pray and meditate on it and those practices have directed me to books, blogs, websites and everything I can gobble up on the subject of living an abundant life. I have used several techniques to find my purpose and I came to a conclusion after putting them all together.

The first exercise I found in the book, Breaking the Money Barriers (read more about it here). The exercise revealed that I love to laugh, draw/paint and pray. I am good at (according to me) drawing/painting, giving and prayer. The things that complete my life are prayer, love and self-improvement. And according to me I am born to help others, draw and be successful. Doesn’t sound like much does it?

The exercise tells you to write a statement using the previous information. Here is my conclusion … My purpose is to help people laugh, love and improve their lives through art (painting/drawing) and prayer.

How was I going to do this? I didn’t feel complete joy with this statement but I knew that it did describe the things I enjoy.

In a conversation with my mom a few days earlier we discussed how when we win the lottery we will help widows who can’t pay for the funeral of their partner after a sudden death. Our family has experienced this and it would feel good to help someone else not fall into the hole we have been in. In discussing this we felt really good and we have made it our intention.

A few days after I completed the first “purpose” exercise, I woke up feeling gratitude and thinking about helping people financially. I received a message that I would create a foundation to help people financially and emotionally deal with grief and other difficulties. I live with my mom so I wished her a good morning and told her of my message about the foundation, she thought it was an excellent idea. As the day went on the message continued to stream to me. The foundation would be run by my family, we would name it after my dad, The Terry Portofe Foundation. I told my mom immediately and the strange thing was that at the same moment she was having the same thought (Twilight Zone music inserted here).

The feelings of joy were so overwhelming that as I spoke of the ideas coming to me so naturally I was in tears! I will be blogging more about the foundation in the future. I know I am on the right track.

A few days later I discovered another exercise to reveal your life purpose at be Conscious now. K-L used a technique that Steve Pavlina recommended. You write (or type) ‘My purpose is ____ ‘ and you keep filling in the blank with the things you think your purpose is. You do this exercise until you bring up an emotion that brings you to tears. That emotion reveals your true purpose. I really wanted to test this thinking pattern I was on.

I let go of the things I had already discovered before I started this exercise. Within in one and half pages and maybe twenty minutes I had tears, I had my purpose. I wrote, My purpose is to share my dad’s life lessons (I felt the emotion). So I expanded, My purpose is to share my dad’s love for life, work, family and God (the tears were there).

I know that the Foundation will entail all the things I love. First my family, laughing, helping people, art and so much more. Yes, I said art. I am planning an art therapy area were folks of all ages can create inspiration to help them through a tough time. I am so excited about this project!

I have been making lists and drawing pictures of what I want the foundation to be. After drawing a picture of the building I discovered that I have been driving past it for several years and it is for sale! It gets my heart leaping for joy just sharing it with you.

I know I don’t know a lot about starting a foundation but I have no fear. I am already doing research and reading books about non-profits, grants, etc. The Universe is putting the information in front of me. God is making every step easy and I think the foundation will be running before the end of the year. It is my purpose! I have been urged to share my purpose. I appreciate your good thoughts and encouragement, every little bit will help me achieve my purpose!

I received a suggestions from Tristan Loo at Synergy Institute Online to expand my About page. I couldn’t agree more so I spent a little time on it today and I will change it as I see fit from time to time. Thanks for the suggestions Tristan.

When I started this blog two months ago I really didn’t know what path I would be taking with this blog. The path has unfolded in front of me and though I cannot see a destination I can see the theme and it is in a word - journey.

I am truly enjoying blogging. If I sound surprised that is because I am. I didn’t know I would be so comfortable sharing my thoughts and stories. I have to confess my motivation for this blog was money. I wanted to make money blogging. So far I haven’t made much money blogging but I have grown by leaps and bounds in the blogosphere. I have been introduced to many helpful people, blogs, life lessons and so much more. I even won an MP3 player!

I am looking forward to the next leg of my journey. I hope you will come along, converse with me and keep me company on the path.

I have been using the law of attraction and my life is getting better everyday!  It is so amazing and exciting when you see it working in your life.  If you are skeptical here is some proof.

About two weeks ago I blogged about b5media’s new music channel.  (They have a long list of blogs about music, something for every music lover!)  b5Media offered a contest. Everyone who blogged about the new music channel was entered into a random drawing to win an iPod and several other prizes.

Over the past couple weeks I have thought about the opportunity to win an iPod and I have assured myself that I AM a winner and I would be winning something from that contest.  I just knew in my heart that I would win.

This morning upon checking my emails I received confirmation from Shai Coggins at b5Media that won a Memorex MP3 Player!!  I am so excited!  I am a winner!

In the past I would have not even entered because I would have listened to that negative voice inside that tells my I am loser.  I don’t hear that voice much anymore, when I do I tell it it is wrong.  I am a winner!

Thank you Shai, b5Media and the Universe!!  You made my day!

We are all on a journey on earth. Whether you choose to be on your journey consciously or not is always up to you. Consciously (to me) means that you live life pro-actively not reactively. You can be tossed about by the waves of life or we can rise above and ride on the tops of the waves for a glorious view.

Life is about choices. Only you are in charge of the path your life takes. If you are thinking, “No, I am where I am because of my children, or my husband, or my parents, and so on.” You are not taking responsibility for the choice you made to let those people be in charge of your life. You are letting the waves toss you about.

If this sounds like you, fear not, you can improve your life. You don’t need any drugs and there is no fad product to buy to make your life better. You have all the tools you just need to learn how to use them. I recommend you take responsibility for your choices and then forgive yourself. Tell yourself that you made the best decision you could make at the time. You take responsibility now and make great decisions for a happy life.

I forgive myself, my past choices were the best I could do based on the information I had at that time.

I am now making great decisions to live a happy life.

Once you have forgiven yourself and let go of guilt and other toxic feelings you will feel much better about yourself.

If these sounds like affirmations, they are. It is so important to have positive self talk. If you are saying negative things to yourself and about yourself constantly you are not going to feel good ever. You must love yourself and treat yourself as you would want others to treat you. You are the best you there ever will be, become your biggest fan!

I have been on a journey for years to find why everything had become so hard in my life. I had literally felt like I was living in a hole. I observed people enjoying life and I felt angry. I couldn’t put my finger on why I was feeling so sad and angry. I read book after book after book on improving my life but I couldn’t get the dark feeling out of my belly no matter what I did.

Recently I read about, Miracle Prayer, that helped me release myself. I forgave myself for choosing to give control of my life to someone and something else. I chose to do it years ago. I even remember saying I am letting So-and-So take control. From that moment on my life was not on my path. It felt awful at times. Over the past eight years (long time, huh?) there have been many happy times but as far as the direction my life was going I felt like I was being drug behind a truck on a gravel road (painful? You bet!).

In January of this year I made a promise to myself that I would stop the truck and get back in the driver’s seat. It has taken seven months to get the truck stopped. I am now climbing in behind the steering wheel.

I forgave myself for making that choice years ago. I am letting go of the past eight years. My self talk is of love, worthiness, peace, joy, happiness, and forgiveness. It is so positive and warm. With meditation and prayer I am creating and manifesting a new path. It feels great and I am EXCITED to be alive!

(This post was originally posted on July 18, 2007, due to technical difficulties I had to delete it and repost it on July 20, 2007)

I have read The Secret and about twenty (if not one hundred) books on changing your thinking, thinking positively and acting as if you have everything you ever wanted. All these books tell you that by shifting your thinking you can change the entire world you live in.

It is all true. But if you are like me thinking, believing and doing doesn’t always come easy. You get stuck in the groove of your past thinking and praying and can’t seem to pull out of the groove. (Funny, I know this example was used in one of many books that I read.)

Since reading The Secret about a month ago, like the writer, Rhonda Byrne, I have been on a quest to really understand The Secret. Why does it work, what is at the root of the Law of Attraction. I know I have used the Law of Attraction in positive ways in my past (unfortunately mostly negative ways). Now I can identify when I used the law to bring exactly what I wanted into my life consciously, and the negative things I really didn’t know I was attracting unconsciously.

Over the past month I have asked for more info and it has poured into my life. One of the most exciting books I have come a crossed is Miracle Prayer by Susan Shumsky, D.D. It has been the book that really connected everything for me. This book goes further than The Secret by explaining spiritually and scientifically how the Law of Attraction works and how you can change your thinking (and life) through prayer that works.

All prayer works, don’t get me wrong, but are your prayers really bringing about the change you want? This book will help you really pray for what you want and align you with God and your divine plan.

I am a library lover. I borrow all my books from the library. Some books that I really enjoy I borrow over and over again. I like Miracle Prayer so much that I am buying it, and The Secret, too. I know that these books were attracted to me and I am so thankful. I am going to use them everyday.

Miracle Prayer gives you affirmations and prayers to help you break negative thinking. It gives you a nine step plan to create your own scientific prayers to get what you want most in life. I was stuck in negative thinking patterns. Even when I was thinking positively I couldn’t get past my past. This book is helping me now.

I Am living in the NOW. Miracle Prayer got me out of my groove! By changing a few words in my prayers and self talk my energy level has increased to levels I have not felt in years and I am realizing my dreams NOW. It is so exciting and incredible!

This book breaks through the laws of society. Miracle Prayer teaches that we do not have to live in world ruled by the “Rich Get Richer, Poor get Poorer.” Believe and know that we are all rich and we are all getting RICHER! If we all change our beliefs we would not live in a world of poverty. I can see now how we have fallen into negative patterns and beliefs it is all around us. Labels are applied and we believe them.

I hope you will read Miracle Prayer and enjoy it as much as I am. I don’t think it replaces the Bible or any other religious scripture but it is a great companion.

Blessings Are Yours!